February 22, 2011

Sigh.


You know that feeling?
When you're just waiting.
Waiting to get home, into your room,
close the door, fall into bed,
and just let everything out that kept you in all day.
That feeling of both relief and desperation.
Nothing is wrong.
But nothing is right either.
Tired of everything, tired of nothing.
And you just want some one to be there and tell you it;s okay.
But no one's going to be there.
And you know you have to be strong for yourself,
because no one can fix you.
But you're tired of waiting.
Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else.
Tired of being strong.
And for once, you just want it to be easy.
To be simple, to be helped, to be saved.
But you know you won't be.
But you're still hoping.
And you're still wishing.
And you're still staying strong and fighting,
with tears in your eyes.
You're fighting.
Yes, I'm tired. Tired of being myself.
Sometimes I felt like I wanna be like others.
Jealous with people around me.
They are just perfect in my eyes.
Well, I am just me. I'm not perfect.
I'm just tired.

2 comments:

Tuan Din said...

Tired?? Take a nap!

Deya Zanial said...

bukan takat take a nape. tapi sampai terlebih-lebih tidur dah haha.